So today was Gabe's birthday! This is one of my favorite childhood campgrounds. This picture was taken this past year there at the lake. We had decided to take a vacation since I was coming upon surgery and would be out of commission for a while. Also I wanted to share some of my childhood with my daughter since this would be her last vacation as a todler and not another till she went to school. We left here on Friday and I had a complete hysterectomy the following Wednesday.
Tonight we had a small get-together at our friends house and we had a great time. We played a game and everyone left sore from laughing so hard. Its nice to party now that there is no more drugs and alcohol around us. Its nice to gather with friends who you can call (and have sometimes) in the middle of the night to pray with you or for someone you know is having it rough. Its nice to cook out and then lead the meal out in a prayer blessing the food and thaking God for such good fellowship. We surely did have a blast. This picture was taken at one of the lower places in my life. I had been very sick for a long time and had just within the year found out I had some cancer cells growing on my "female stuff". As usual, God steped in and made a way to calm the storm in me by making a way to let me enjoy the beauty that surrounds this picture for a whole week. During this week, He prepared this man to take care of my like even I had not seen in the 10 years we have been together. My husband was superman to me and for me in the weeks following this picture. He took the load physically and mentally from me and made my recovery as smooth and easy as could be.
I remember the morning we went to the hospital, Gabe had called our local radio station to request the song: "Me and God". I had never heard the words before but when I did hear them I just cried my eyes out. It meat the whole world to me that he could see and incourage me in this way. Me and God made it through that morning without fail. I was calm and I wasnt in a tremendous amount of pain like I expected and My little girl wasnt scared for me either (she is a worry wort). I couldnt have asked for much more at all. This was one of those times where I was calling these friends and asking for prayers. Its just truly a Godsend to have those kind of people in your life.
So, this week has been different. I worked some and then I had a day of Dr. visits and a cold. Welcome to my week. I found out that what sent me to the ER in Knoxville, turned out to not be what they expected at all. However, it was a good thing I went because I did find that their may be a reason for why the meds failed miserably to work. Also, I may have some other knee issues that may be able to be fixed and not just treating symptoms. I went all alone and I guess I just forgot that I need alone time sometimes too. I had a wounderful time with myself all day.
I was very pleased with my dr's and that is why I take the travel to get that special care. I love UT Medical Center. I went through fertility, ob, gyn, GI and colorectal surgery all at that hospital and I just feel very safe there.
We had a soccer game this past Sat. and boy did they have a great time. We are the coaches and we just love it. After all the fertility issues I had, it is such a blessing that I now have a child and a very healthy and beautiful one at that. I felt horrible asking God for another but I truly left it to Him. I felt selfish asking God for another healthy child because He gave me one and some never get that. Hoever I told Him I would except what ever He wanted. I went back through the procedures and I asked for a sign to show me what He wanted and He did it. Just like God does things, in a way noone could question where it came from. Iwas on my way to the DR. for the pregnancy test and as soon as I took the exit, my transmission went completely out. I coasted to a parking spot and had the test. I knew but within the hour the office called and told me it was negative. I did not greive because I knew God had a plan. But now I am officially a "soccer mom" and that is exactly what I wanted. She does not have siblings and will never but I have her and I dont feel I could be anymore blessed than that.
I have cought the sinus bug that is so severly going around. I will be fine of course but even better if I dont pass this on to my baby girl.
Have a great week and God bless you all!
